It's my life.

2011-12-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

A:
*if you walk away (from the r/s, not from your computer), can you safely say that you have tried your best at it and that you won't have any regrets 10, 20 years down the road?

*the thing about r/s, is that you grow and learn together. I don't think there's really a "match made in heaven". I think relationships are about two people with chemistry, two people who have a special liking for each other, coming together and becoming the "special someone" whom their partners know they can depend on for support, for hope for the future.

*it's about loving each other for what you love about them, and knowing and accepting their flaws. but at the same time, the other party also tries to minimise that flaw. it's about communicating and compromising.

*i think la.

*It was all good until you said "i think la", spoil the mood sia

"I know I don't ever want to stop holding his hands or stop being his special someone ;p"

The one in Korea. :)

2011-12-07T02:33:00.001+08:00

You make my days so much better. :D

2011-11-22T22:44:00.001+08:00

i like it when you randomly pull me close and give me a tight hug. :D

2011-11-20T03:03:00.001+08:00

HELLO (L)

WAH
why got love one

CANNOT ARH?
okay lor
no moreeeeeeeee!

I WANT!

dont have le! =P

:/ ni bu ai wo le.

AI LAAAA~

heheeeee

so mushy!

hehe
u die liao
later fall in love with me

hahahha

kena rejected only ):

hehehee
WHO SAY!

meeeeee

can u pretend that sinying in my rice bowl
liek char siew pao~

i can really eat you right now
eat u right now~
eat ytou right now~
i can really eat you right now
like
like
like
char siew pao

HAHAAA.
SILYL GIRL,

U SO CUTEEE! ,WHERE WILL NOT GOOD ENOUGH!

cuter girls are everywhere LOL

LIKEEE~!

likeeeee
EVERYONE

haha.
u cuter la.

EHH
ASK U AH.

TWO GUYS SEATING ON TOP OF A ROCK

yeah?
then?
thenthenthen?
WHAT?
???????????????????????????
??????????????????????????????????

???????????????????????????????????????????

hehe
YI SHI ER NIAO:X

oh i was supposed to guess something from that?
i thought got story
HAHAHHA

I WALKED IN THE BUSH AGAIN
WILD SINYINGMON APPEARED.

GO CHARMANDER.
CHARMANDER USED EMBER
YONGXIANG USED GREAT BALL

WILD SINYINMON CAUGHT
DO YOU WANT TO GIVE A NICKNAME TO SINYINGMON?

why * and u like usdd becoming so close!!!

okay whaaaaat~
jealous ah?

NO!

jealous i snatch * with you LOL

NO!
:x

jealous * snatch you with me:x.

HI WEI LAI GIRLFRIENDDDDDDD

HAHAHA
what sia.
i confirm become your gf meh!? =P

;p
hahaha
LALALA.
U WILL SEE!.

OMG
GIRLFRIENDDD
IM SO STRESS BUT SEE U ONLINE
I SMILEDD
;P

BUT U NEVER HUGGED ME BEFORE
HMPH.
!
._.
*Hint*
haha

AIYAAA
nvm la.
not like after 1 ,2 years i will leave you

i will wait until your parents accept
then marry you
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEE
think so far.
haha

its a beautiful night~~
we are looking for
something dumb to do~
WOO YEAH BABY~~ i think i wanna marry you~~~
lalalalaa

hahaha
what if one day you get sick of me!

haha
that will be the day when

sinying say she will be happier without me:x.
i wont leave her until she want me to leave her!
hahahaha

SINYING!.
DEAR
GIRLFRIEND!
OI

yesyesyes?

NI SHI WO DE WEI YI

29th October 2011.

2011-10-30T00:22:00.000+08:00

I never had the chance to meet you, but I think that you are a strong and kind woman, and you have definitely inspired me as an individual.

Giving generously and expecting nothing in return - I would say that this is one of the things that you have taught me, and is what I would like to achieve eventually. Caring for and sharing with your neighbours, bringing joy to your family and bringing your grandchildren up to be good people are just some of the things that you have done to touch the lives of many. Simple, yet undoubtedly significant.

I believe that you're still guarding your family and friends from sadness and harm like you have always had, like a guardian angel. May all whom are affected by your departure stay strong and live life to the fullest.

My name is Sin Ying. I hope I can grow up to become someone like you.

Rest in peace.

Science and Faith

2011-10-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

Please get better soon. I believe you will get better. We're all fighting this battle with you.

It's been 7 months, my dear. Please just remember that I'm here when you need me. I love you.

Praying.

2011-10-04T07:13:00.002+08:00

Maybe it was the small things that you stopped doing.

2011-09-13T01:08:00.002+08:00

Decisions. Everyday we're making them - some of which are just plain mundane everyday decisions like what to have for lunch, while others have much stronger influences and impacts on our life journey.

To go, or to stay?

A question that has been lingering in my mind for the longest time ever. Okay, no, that would be an exaggeration, but it has been there for quite long. Too long, I would say.

Yet, despite all the researching on the net and the sleepless nights pondering over this issue, I have yet to find a solution for this question.

To go, or to stay?

Either way, it's going to strongly influence how my life plays out. Either way, there will be pros and cons. Should I go with the decision that allows a less taxing financial burden on my family? Or the one that allows me to be where I want to be?

2011-09-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

It's comforting when you're worried/upset about something and someone's there to reassure you that everything's gonna be okay. :)

2011-08-21T12:43:00.001+08:00

Time's passing so fast~

Holidays. HK. SIP. MP. Graduate.

...then what?

I wonder if anyone will miss me when I'm gone.

Heh.

Shit.

2011-08-07T11:25:00.003+08:00

Those who have stayed with me long enough would know that when things don't go according to how I'd like them to, I always say, "This is life - shit happens."

But last night, or rather this morning, in the midst of an inspirational speech/lecture, YX happened to mention "Shit happens, we flush it". (IDK if he knows about my line, though.)

"This is life - shit happens."

"Shit happens, we flush it."

See the link?

Before yesterday, I failed to see this. When an undesirable situation happens, I always succumbed to it and allowed it to take control and crash me (sometimes). Sure, sometimes life takes a dump and it may stink so much that the stench is worse than durians + vomit + *insert other smelly stuff*. But does that mean that I have to just stand there and continue to smell the smelly piece of shit? Hell no!

The flush is always there. It's just a matter of whether or not I take that step to flush it down the toilet bowl. Memories will stay with me, but I can choose not to see them in the negative light. The past will be a part of me, but I can choose not to let it hurt me. Other girls will be around, but I can choose to have faith. It's all a matter of choice.

It's time I take control of myself and my life. It's time I let go of negativity and inject some positivity to myself. It's time for me to start loving myself more.

I am awesome in my own way. I love myself. :)

You, my dear reader (if any), are awesome too. Please love yourself. :)

P.S. This is probably one of the most positive entry I've ever typed, and its main subject is shit?!

P.P.S. Thank you for shedding the light, YX. Love you la heh heh. :D

2011-08-04T00:38:00.002+08:00

I can't, but I have to, because I can't.

Tremble. Shiver.

I will win this damn war.

F off.

2011-07-31T22:54:00.003+08:00

Be gone.

Shouldn't. Couldn't. Wouldn't.

Don't wanna. Ain't gonna.

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Am not. :)

Neck really hurts. Ouuuuuuuuch.

Bye! :)

2011-07-10T20:50:00.000+08:00

"WHERE'S MY WIFE!??!" XD

2011-07-05T09:02:00.000+08:00

2011-07-03T12:56:00.001+08:00

I guess I'll never be good enough.

I'm sorry.

2011-07-03T12:52:00.000+08:00

2011-06-12T00:03:00.003+08:00

"I nap first kay. :p"

1 second later...

"Dear! Go sleep for awhile now!"

Heeheeeeee. :D

Forever & A Day

2011-05-25T13:36:00.003+08:00

I'll be there till the stars don't shine

Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme

I know when I die you'll be on my mind

And I'll love you always

Happy 2, Mr. Prawn. :D

I know you miss her. :P

2011-05-04T01:10:00.002+08:00

Time and again, I get reminded of the reason why I fell for this special someone. Always make me so 感动 one!!! :')

Thank you. ♥

2011-04-25T01:07:00.001+08:00

My Year 3 life starts in approximately 10 hours.

Am I ready for this, you ask?

Not at all.

2011-04-24T02:46:00.002+08:00

How difficult is it for friends to truly feel happy for someone when he/she gets attached?

I don't know. All I know is that I don't like it when people throw senseless, hurtful comments around. You may have your fears, that I can understand, but hurling insults? Really?

Well, maybe all I need is just for you to be happy for me 'cause I, for one, am happy.

2011-04-17T22:21:00.002+08:00

I hate this.

I hate it when we're all at home, because it's so awkward to see you guys acting like you don't see each other. I hate it when nobody's home too, because it just sucks to be home alone.

What's becoming of this family? Everything's falling apart. I really, really hate this.

Sigh, going off to build a perfect family in Sims 3. Bye.

House vs. Home

2011-03-29T02:22:00.002+08:00

Was I surprised? No, I wouldn't say so. Had too many reasons, too many indicators. I can't say that I didn't see this coming.

I wasn't surprised, but I'm sad nonetheless.

If this is the way things are meant to be, there's really nothing that I can do. After all, if they are happier and better off this way, who am I to say anything?

For the longest time, I've been envious of others' families. It's so nice to see the whole family being all loving and showing concern for one another. Guess this is why I am always grateful when friends invite me to their family gatherings - because it is something I can't experience in my own.

Will this house be a home again?

2011-03-08T00:31:00.002+08:00

HELLO. :)

It's the holidays!!! Okay no not really. Been busy with DREAMS. Basically my March will be all about PC~ I think it was like this last year too?

Anyway, the AY is ending and thus my journey as an AQM in PC is ending too. Honestly, I don't know what to feel about that. And I don't know if I'm gonna run again. I guess I'll blog about this issue again when I have a clearer mind.

Sorry, UBF. I tried. :O

Brand new year, brand new beginning.

2011-01-01T03:31:00.004+08:00

We were randomly chit-chatting sitting at a random spot at a random place...

"It's 11.54pm now... Let's just anyhow shout TEN! NINE! ...."

"... But then our handphones all never show seconds, then how we countdown?!"

"Yah hor. Maybe the others will shout when the time comes."

.............

*sounds of fireworks*

"OMG FIREWORKS WOOOOOO!!!! ......WHERE AH WHERE AH!??!?! *looks everywhere*"

"OH IT'S THERE! *points*"

".... Wah we picked the best spot ever. Can see a little bit only." (& nobody shouted the countdown.)

This, was how I spent the first few minutes of 2011.

"...Is that girl crying? I think she's crying."

"Maybe? I think so?"

"Sigh... Why she cry? New year leh. Don't cry... Happy new year."

.............

*HTHT*

*Cries*

"This is like a replay of what happened earlier... >.<"

This, was how I spent the first two hours of 2011.

"Heng we caught the last train on the purple line... EH WHAT IF NO GREEN AND RED LINES' TRAINS?!?!?"

"Oh yah hor!!! Should be won't so suay?"

"Don't know leh. Hope so... >.<"

.............

"My last train gone!!!"

"OMG I JUST MISSED THE LAST TRAIN TOO. Sian need to cab home. Today is so memorable. :/"

This, was how I spent the third hour of 2011.

May 2011 be a year of happiness for my family, friends and myself. Chins up, put on your best smile, and keep believing. (:

2010-12-21T21:56:00.003+08:00

Maybe no matter how hard I try, I'll never be good enough.

U-Kiss

2010-11-20T01:25:00.004+08:00

It's my first time!!!!!!!!!!!!! Being so close. Oh my god. Pointers for my own memories' sake!

- Being REALLY close to the stage (media area) - reach out my hand and I'll touch their feet!

- Water flying out from uncapped water bottle when they were dancing

- Xander almost tripped over a water bottle

- Stage was raining with their perspiration

- Kibum stuck out his tongue while dancing!

- Soohyun's in-ear monitor dropped, then he just pulled out the cable and threw it onto the floor~

- Dongho winked to Emilie and I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- Kevin smiled and waved!!!

- Eli smiled at us~!

- SHOOK THEIR HANDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- Xander said "辛苦你了"!!!!!!

I died over and over again when the boys do super cute stuff. Heh.

I love U-Kiss!!!!!!! :D

P.S. I'm incoherent because I'm dead tired. :/

2010-11-15T09:14:00.003+08:00

I dreamt of my parents telling me that I only had 5 days left in Singapore before we returned to Hong Kong for good.

And I remember how sad it felt to have to leave the Addicts and Production Crew.

From the bottom of my heart, I love you guys.

P.S. I hope that dream won't suddenly come true.

2010-11-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

It's my birthday today. :)

2010-10-21T07:46:00.002+08:00

The chances of it happening is almost close to none. What was I expecting? Time to move along...

A.

2010-10-18T22:06:00.006+08:00

My 1st job is officially over.

I guess I'll have to say that I'm glad I took up this job. Learnt new skills, gain new experiences, forged new friendships. Even though the queue can be crazy at times, but I guess it was all worth it. :)

I still remember my very very first customer was a really nice lady. I made a mistake in scanning her items, and I kinda panicked, but she actually said, "I know you're new to this. Just take your time. It's okay." Seriously, how lucky could I get?! My first customer was totally a morale booster. :)

Another customer, while walking towards my counter, was wriggling his eyebrows vigorously at me. I have no idea why. I smiled to him anyway, because... well, what else could I have done?

Sometimes it's really tough to juggle the whole counter alone - scanning of items, packing of items, making of payment - two hands are just not enough. But quite often, my customers will automatically self-service and pack their stuff themselves while I make payment. I am thankful for such customers, because they make my job so much easier and faster.

I also appreciate it a lot when customers actually make an effort to say a word of thanks and smile at me. Small gestures like that make my days so much better.

On several occasions, customers were speaking amongst themselves in Cantonese, and I replied them in Cantonese. Then they looked surprised and continued with the transaction. XD

Of course, there is bound to be customers who are not so nice.

Some came to my counter looking and acting like they're pissed off at the whole world, and will demand a lot, but generally they're still tolerable.

There's this particular customer who demanded for gift wrapping service when it's a mega sales event, and almost went to the extent of sending in a complaint letter about my senior. I asked him if he wanted to talk to her personally, since she was just a few steps away, but he said no. Eventually my senior approached him and explained this and that, and I think (/hope) the issue was resolved.

My last day of work (today) was pretty special too. Made friends with Dettol suppliers since setup days and met them again today. They actually drove me down to Bedok to have lunch with them! It's kinda like a celebratory lunch since their sales for the event was not bad, and they actually invited me to join them. How nice right?! Somehow I just feel this instant connection with them. They're all really friendly and everyone feels like family even though it's only the 2nd or 3rd time I've seen them. :)

So yeah, this post pretty much concludes my first working experience. Longest post in quite some time! :)

Mr. A, I'm wishing that you would get it. Please do!

2010-10-12T12:20:00.002+08:00

Me: Total will be $xx.xx. Paying by...?

Customer: I'm paying by ATM.

Cute sia~ Hahahah okay I'm for work~ Bye!

2010-10-04T22:42:00.003+08:00

HIIIIII I'M BACK! :D

It's been quite some time since I logged in to blogger... I think I say this quite often. But anyway, this is not the main point of this post.

The main point is.......

THIS!

Yes, I finally got my first job outside of my family. Honestly, I'm not so sure if I can get used to working, but I'll try my best! First day of work tomorrow heeheeee. :)

I should think it's quite obvious which company I'm working for, but if you can't tell, go figure. :P

Rant

2010-08-09T21:57:00.004+08:00

Semester 2.1 is over. This leaves me with one more semester in PC main comm......

What have I done in this semester?

Was I of any help to PC?

Did I do enough to deserve my position?

Am I good enough?

Have been thinking about such questions quite a lot recently... And more importantly, should I run for main comm again next year?

I have another semester to think about this. I guess I'll decide again when the time's nearer. :/

So...

2010-08-09T21:41:00.002+08:00

It's been more than a month since I last blogged.

Between now and then, I would say it has been pretty eventful, yet pretty mundane too. Apart from the events which made this time eventful, the rest of the time was basically routines which totally drained me out.

Events worth remembering? Let's see...

BEAST fan sign. The first in my life. Even though the stalking wasn't that successful, but I must say that I had fun. How often do you get to ride on the highway and feel like you're on a roller coaster? Not to mention, the company was a cool bunch. :)

CCA Awards Ceremony. I think it's kinda interesting how I was an FS for this event in Year 1, an award recipient for Arts Merits award in Year 2, and an award recipient for Arts Leadership award in Year 3. And maybe, hopefully, IGOTY too. :)

Campus Concert. Pretty cool experience 'cause you don't get a star coming to your school every other day.

National Day Celebration @ TP. I would say I learnt quite a bit from this show. I was actually really worried about being the SM 'cause... I think I'm not SM material. In any case, I survived. :)

Other than these, my life has been assignments assignments assignments, projects projects projects, tests test tests, quizzes quizzes quizzes. Well, school basically. Not much worth mentioning here.

Going back home tomorrow. Yay.

P.S. I really disliked this semester's timetable. & I'm glad the semester's over.

2010-06-27T00:35:00.001+08:00

I'm going back to school tomorrow, on a Sunday, to do my group project.

No life ttm.

HB, HB.

2010-06-22T00:12:00.001+08:00

But sometimes, even trying your hardest gets you nowhere.

2010-06-16T23:11:00.002+08:00

Sin Ying: Mum, I received a letter from school.

Mum: For what? School fees?

Sin Ying: No, I'm receiving an award.

Mum: Oh. *Walks away*

Slightly exaggerated, but that's about how the conversation went. If anyone needs extra tickets for the ceremony, you can have mine. Otherwise, they'll just stay in the envelope.

习惯就好。(<--I've been saying this a lot.)

2010-06-16T16:58:00.003+08:00

The same thing has happened so many times that I don't even know what to feel about it anymore.

“真心，换来谎言。

付出，换来伤害。

谁先付出真心，谁就是输家。”

I'm fine.

习惯就好。(:

2010-06-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

Maybe it was a mistake from the very beginning.

2010-06-15T19:30:00.002+08:00

How much pain does it take for a guy to drop tears in front of a girl?

2010-06-14T21:31:00.002+08:00

The question is here again - what should I do?

Had a HTHT with L today. Seems like everyone's morale is going lower and lower. All I have done is to listen. I mean, what else can I possibly do? This isn't a problem I can solve on my own. & honestly, I'm pretty lost myself, so yeah.

It's only been two months. We've got ten more months to go. Please don't give up just yet. Personally, one of the reasons why I'm holding on is because of you guys.

"Hopefully, we can all walk till the end of the AY, side by side, with smiles on our faces."

Suddenly feel quite tired of everything. But, well, keep holding on.

PCIC

2010-06-14T00:52:00.002+08:00

PCIC AY10/11 is finally over. :D

This camp has been pretty full of hiccups, which the camp committee had somehow managed to pull through together.

There were disagreements, there were arguments, there were times when we wanted to kill each other, there were times when we were tired like mad, but the thing is, we did it. (:

I'm glad everything worked out pretty well. I won't say we did perfect, but at least the freshies left the auditorium smiling, talking to their new friends. To me, that's good enough. All the hard work we did was worth it. (:

(L) PC.

P.S. I still can't understand how some of the freshies thought I was a prop/doll in the night walk. :3

Faith

2010-06-03T22:11:00.002+08:00

Feeling slightly disheartened.

Am I doing it right? I try to give and give, but does it really matter? Does doing what I'm doing make it a better place to be? I really don't know. I'm feeling lost.

I'm losing faith.

How now brown cow?

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PERSEVERE.

It will all be worthwhile.

(Maybe if I say it often enough, I'll start believing in it.)

This, is all I can do now.

加油!

2010-06-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

My brother is enlisting tomorrow. I'm gonna miss him. :'(

Kitten

2010-06-02T16:47:00.002+08:00

This newborn kitten is reaaaally tiny. Probably smaller than the size of my palm? S said that its umbilical cord was still attached. :O

Hope it's doing fine at the SPCA!! (:

2010-06-02T16:45:00.003+08:00

Last night, I dreamt that the memo for PCOC got approved, and I was happily emailing the committee about it.

(Yeah I know, what a dream.)

And.... Guess what?

The memo just got approved. My dream came true. ^__^

Reflection

2010-05-25T21:48:00.003+08:00

It's happened again.

Once, twice, thrice.

What's new?

I don't even feel anything anymore.

Good job, Sin Ying. (Y)

Looking at my life from another person's POV, I realised how stupid I've been.

All those times, I kept wondering what have I done to deserve all the shit you gave me.

Am I too ugly? Am I too paranoid? Am I too busy? Am I not good enough?

These thoughts, they crossed my mind thousands of times. I'm not even exaggerating.

Maybe, maybe if I tried a little harder...

Yup, I was foolish. Foolish enough to trust you again. Like I've told you, it was the biggest mistake I've made this year. But well, what's done has been done. Lesson learnt.

Now, as I look at her, I can tell she's in a similar situation as I was in. And I'm sure we're not the only two around. All I can say is, "What the heck is wrong with you?"

I now know, that the issue was not on me. It was you. It has always been you. It's you who goes around screwing up people's lives. It's you who goes around playing, not giving a fuck to others' emotions.

I don't feel the slightest tinge of sadness anymore. A little disgust, perhaps, but that's about it. Maybe I'm void of emotions, or maybe I've already moved on. I hope it's the latter.

Well, you know what?

I deserve better.

2010-05-22T21:38:00.002+08:00

As usual, I got onto bus 969 to get to Tampines to get to school. There were plenty of seats, but no "inside" seats, so I sat next to this primary school girl who was sleeping soundly.

All was fine.

As usual, I fell asleep when the bus got onto the highway. The next time I knew, the bus has reached Tampines interchange. As usual, all the passengers started to chiong for the door to get down the bus first.

I looked around. The little girl sitting next to me was still sleeping soundly.

I poked her. No response. I poked her again. No response.

I shook her gently. No response. I shook her again. No response still.

Has she fainted?

I look around again. Another commuter caught my eye. She must have sensed my helplessness, because she, too, came over and nudged the little girl.

After a few more nudges and whatnot, the little girl woke up. The kind soul who helped to nudge her got off the bus. The bus was empty except for the little girl, the bus driver and I.

The little girl looked around and asked in a timid voice, "Are we in Tampines?" Or at least I think that's what she asked. I had my earpieces on.

"Yah," I replied, pulling out the earpieces from my ears. That's what anyone does when spoken to, right?

"I.... I live in Yishun...!" The little girl started crying. I looked around wondering what I should do. The bus driver was still in his seat, watching us from the rear mirror.

The little girl and I got down from the bus. I bent down and asked if she knew where to take the bus back to Yishun.

She said, "No... I'm scared."

I gave her a smile. A reassuring one, I hope. I told her, "Don't be scared, okay? I'll bring you to the place to take the bus. It'll be okay."

I stood up. She was tiny, about half my height. I held her small hand, hoping that she'd feel more secured that way, and led her to the queue for 969. Honestly, I would have taken the bus with her if I didn't have to rush to school to submit my assignment.

I hope she got home safely.

2010-05-10T21:39:00.002+08:00

Manchester United did not win the Premier League. :(

But still, Glory Glory Man United! (L)

You know I'm really cui when I actually sleep in lectures. As much as I love to sleep, I usually try to stay awake in classes. It's only Monday and I'm drained. This is baaaad.

On a brighter note, I have finally attended Cross-Cultural Psych lecture for the first time ever since school started. Have been skipping it 'cause I always had something on. >.>

I guess it's really time to buck up on my studies. Have been missing out too much for the past few weeks.

哭过就好了

2010-05-09T22:04:00.003+08:00

哭過就好了傷都會好的
這樣相信所以深呼吸著割捨
愛是為了擁抱為了牽手
不是為了爭吵為了調頭

哭過就好了痛都會走的
記憶有限所以它會淘汰壞的
失眠聽歌想念雖然苦澀
還是謝謝你讓我長大了

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不懂得珍惜真心的人，不值得我付出真心。

笨惨了

2010-05-09T18:26:00.003+08:00

When you feel an emotion with a really, really great intensity, does it turn into numbness? 'Cause that's what I'm feeling right now - not really feeling anything. Numb.

Heartbeat rate went up. Two tears dropped. I wiped the tears. I went for a shower. Now I'm blogging as though everything is fine.

The self-defense mechanism is going stronger and stronger. I feel the walls. Those damn walls.

While I'm at this, Fuck You. You know who you are. Thanks for all the shit you've given me.

Sigh. Incoherent thoughts. I need my brain back.

On a totally unrelated note, Happy Mother's Day. I love you, Mum.

2010-05-08T22:42:00.001+08:00

原来这么用力地笑，会这么累。

2010-05-02T20:31:00.003+08:00

So my Mum and I were talking about going back to Hong Kong to shop. I suggested going back in August since I'll be having my study break (more like pre-exams holidays) then.

Me: In August it's.... (I was thinking what season it'll be in Hong Kong.)

Mum: National Day!

Me: ..........okay.

I'm quite sure my parents are going back to HK after my bro and I finish our studies. I'm not so sure where I want to be, though.

On one hand, my relatives are all in Hong Kong/China. I really, really miss celebrating CNY with them. On the other hand, my friends are all in Singapore. I have literally no friends in HK. :( Was too young when I left. Had no e-mail or stuff like that to keep in contact with my classmates.

I wonder if people will actually miss having me around if I do go back. Like, find it really damn odd without me. I actually doubt so. I wouldn't consider my presence very significant most of the time. I mean, I guess certain people will miss me sometimes, but life will still be fine. Haha.

Oh well. Shall leave all the thinking to next time, when I really have to make a choice out of the two.

2010-05-02T15:40:00.002+08:00

The baluku on my shin from last last Thursday is still, well, a baluku. In fact, I think the bump just got bigger after I rubbed it. >.>

I hope it's not permanent. A baluku on shin is just plain odd.

你和我，败给了找不回的感觉。

2010-04-30T22:46:00.002+08:00

(Onew is mega love!!!)

The name that I once loved travels further away as I call it

I write down that name, holding back tears

I want to hide it within myself

Remember that day now

When all I could do was love you

Because an unachievable love is still love

Goodbye, my love

I'll let you go now

The remembrances and the memories

I'll forget them all

I'll erase and erase and empty out every drop of love from my heart

Just being random. Heh.

2010-04-29T17:39:00.001+08:00

- I love my contact lens. I think they look awesome. (:

- I feel weird coming home this early.

- No school tomorrow.

- Have yet to decide whether to go for FO lunch or not.

- I miss jellyfish. Hurhur.

2010-04-26T23:47:00.004+08:00

Today, I received many hugs from people I've never hugged before. :)

I realised it's really really REALLY bad when I get abnormally high. 'Cause during the later part of the day, I tend to emo like shit, which was exactly what happened today.

Honestly, I thought I was holding it in quite well. For the entire day, I was damn high, but I was going around saying, "I am depressed" while I was smiling/laughing. Even I wouldn't have believed that I was feeling down. >.>

During the workshop, I realised how under-prepared I was. There were so many things that I kinda left out. Time management, for one. Really gotta thank everyone for being able to work well despite the bad planning and unclear instructions.

Then during debrief, I snapped. I'm sorry you guys had to witness that insanely weak side of me. It's a side of me that I never wanted anyone to see. But today, I just cried like mad. Even when I was on my way home, I was silently tearing. Freaky, I know.

(Then again, my crying point is like SUPER low. So I guess it isn't exactly that rare to see me cry?)

Thank you to the people who've given me a pat on the shoulder/arm. Thank you to the people who've ruffled my hair. Thank you to the people who've tried to cheer me up. Thank you to the people who've offered me hugs. Thank you to the people who've given me group hugs. Thank you to the people who've SMSed me showing their concern. Thank you to all the people who've helped out for the workshop.

L-O-V-E.

Tomorrow will be a better day. :)

P.S. I am so hungry now. My last meal was like 12 hours ago.

P.P.S. I'm sorry but my Coke addiction is coming back. At least for now.

I've deleted all the messages fom you.

I'll be strong. I'll be fine.

2010-04-25T21:46:00.000+08:00

Haven't cried this hard in a really, really long time.

痛的滋味

2010-04-25T21:27:00.002+08:00

为什么还是这么痛？

我就像一个白痴一样，只能不停地哭，不停地哭。

我到底做错了什么？

真的好痛。

回来，好吗？

Nothing Is Wrong

2010-04-24T21:24:00.002+08:00

Things haven't been too smooth recently.

No time for regrets, though. Who said it was going to be easy? Since I'm already here, I gotta give what I can.

---

Sometimes, when you fall, everyone will point at you and laugh hard, leaving you to stand up again on your own. Sometimes, even the people closest to you will turn their backs on you.

Sometimes, the worst that can happen will happen.

I guess this is all part of life, part of growing up. Again, who said growing up was going to be easy?

This is life - shit happens.

---

Should I, or should I not? This is one question that I'll ponder over until I fall asleep tonight.

So.

2010-04-23T12:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a pretty screwed up day.

Too many things went wrong. Some things could have been avoided, but happened because of my carelessness. Who else can I blame but myself, right?

Right.

And I was really prone to injuries yesterday. Several new bruises on my legs, one on my arm, and a baluku on my shin. Had to hide the baluku from Mum 'cause I'm pretty damn sure she'll ask me to quit PC (again) when she sees it.

Whatever it is, I'm really really thankful for the awesome PC mates. Honestly, I was feeling quite down down down down down but your words of encouragement and your pats on my shoulder make me realise that I'm not alone. :)

P.S. The only good thing that happened yesterday was the Wii thingy. I still find it damn cool. Congrats again!!! (L)

2010-04-05T22:58:00.001+08:00

Love like you've never been hurt.

2010-03-26T01:22:00.002+08:00

Welcome back. :)

2010-03-14T23:33:00.001+08:00

Am I thinking too much, or are things really getting out of hand?

... I just wish what I'm thinking is not the truth.

2010-02-28T11:15:00.001+08:00

The holidays are here.

HELL YEAH.

It's been a while.

2010-02-18T15:03:00.004+08:00

Hello guys.

I haven't blogged for a while because I'm too lazy.

Yes, I'm becoming increasingly lazy by the day and it's a really bad sign.

It is the Study Week before the Final Exams and I'm not even motivated to study at all.

How now brown cow~? :(

By the way, in case anyone was wondering why I didn't mention Chinese New Year, it's because it's almost non-existent to me since I don't have any relatives in Singapore...

Haven't celebrated it with my relatives for like, 10 years already.

WHICH IS REALLY SAD. :(

I wonder why people still check this space even though it's so dead.

And then y'all get disappointed each time you check 'cause it's always the same old Francis post. AND you can't chase me for a blog post because I don't have a tagboard and the comments thingy BWAHAHAHA~ :P

Oh and, apparently someone Googled "sinying meiwah" and ended up here. O.O

Stalker!!!!!11111111 (It's okay, really. I stalk people all the time. ^^)

TADAH~~ New mundane post for bored people to read. :D

I'm out. :)

Incomplete.

2010-01-24T02:21:00.002+08:00

It came too soon, too sudden.

I'll miss the way you laugh out loud together with us.

"I'm not used to the culture here," he says.

I'll miss always bumping into you around school and saying, "You're stalking us, right?!"

"Don't you love us?"

"I love you all."

I'll miss how you'd always sit down with us when you see us "loitering" around.

He couldn't bare to leave us too.

I'll always remember how you always want to treat us to drinks/food.

"Let's meet up on Monday for CG to discuss who you want as your new CP."

I'll always remember the photo we used to laugh at.

I wanna cry, because he's leaving.

I'll always remember you, as the most awesome CP.

Since when did we all get so emotionally attached to him?

1A02 is not complete without you.

Here's a rainbow (well, sort of) for you.

May you be happy wherever you're heading to after this.

To egg or not to egg.

2010-01-03T23:28:00.002+08:00

Gathering at Francis' place went pretty well, even though less than half the class attended.

Went grocery shopping with Francis!!!

How often do you get to go grocery shopping with your tutor, seriously!

So I was queuing with Francis while the others queued another row to pay for the beer.

The person queuing behind us had a carton of eggs in her trolley.

Francis: *gesturing to the lady behind us* Those eggs look fake.

Me: Hurhur...

Francis: Should I get some eggs? If I get eggs then I can make eggs for you all. I can make hard-boiled eggs, half-boiled eggs, omelettes, sunny side up, -goes on naming a few other types of eggs-.

Me: Nope.

Francis: I say so long then you say don't want buy!!!

Me: ^_^

In the end, we didn't buy eggs.

P.S. He prepared a few big bottles of Coke. (Y)

Another year has gone by.

2009-12-31T22:44:00.002+08:00

I guess this is the last post of the day, last post of the year, as well as the last post of the decade.

A decade ago, around this time, I was on a flight to Singapore to start a new life.

A year ago, I was out waiting to countdown to 2009.

All I can say is, time flies like mad.

2009 has been a year of change for me, & I'm really glad that I'm coping with it.

The upcoming years are gonna be way tougher and I must endure!!

Housewarming at Francis' place tomorrow~~

I have no idea when and where to meet who. Oh well.

Before I go, in case you were wondering, I don't do new year resolutions 'cause I know I won't make them happen.

Goodbye, 2009.

Now I can't live in self-denial, thinking that my assignments are due "next year". :(

Hello, 2010, the start of a whole new decade.

Happy New Year!

Bring you a piece of old news...

2009-12-01T23:36:00.006+08:00

I'm seventeen.

Old news because, I turned seventeen almost a month ago.

I just haven't had the time and motivation to blog about it before today.

To be honest, my seventeenth (omg I actually typed seventh) birthday was pretty plain.

I stayed home the entire day, apart from having dinner at Sakae Sushi, which turned out pretty bad, but that's besides the point.

It was plain, but I'm thankful nonetheless.

I'm thankful because friends whom I didn't think would remember the day remembered.

Especially those who bothered to call/text me, even though it was quite paiseh because a typical conversation went like this:

ABC: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! :D

Me: Thank you! :D Who is this? I lost my contacts.

(I lost my contacts when I lost my phone a few months back.)

I'm thankful because I realised where I stand when friends whom I thought would remember, did not remember.

Some of these people were quite expected, I guess.

But that's okay because I don't really care now. (:

I'm thankful because this birthday is the first time I've had a bunch of friends who mass-called me at midnight just to sing me a birthday song.

Yessssss this is my first time in seventeen years!!

I wasn't really expecting a mass-call hahaha thank you everyone! (:

I'm thankful because I had a surprise celebration.

And when I say 'surprise celebration', I really was surprised.

Usually I would have picked up some hints here and there and guessed the surprise but this one was totally unexpected!

PC brought out a cake after the debrief for Dreams rehearsal and I got stunned. XD

I'm thankful because my Brother's awesome.

He literally moved me to tears because he was so sweet.

'Check under your pillow' hahaha awwww. <3

I'm thankful because this year's birthday was...... different, in a good and bad sense.

My past birthdays have never been so awesome and screwed at the same time.

Weird eh?

I'm thankful because every little thing can mean so much.

Thank you to everyone who remembered this day, and actually bothered to wish me a happy birthday, whether it was a call, a text, a message on my FB wall, an IM, or face to face. (:

Once again, I am officially seventeen. (:

P.S. This is probably the longest entry I've posted in quite a while.

"Psychologists seek to understand the world."

2009-11-14T16:02:00.001+08:00

......but how can I do that when I can't even understand the people close to my heart?

2009-10-22T23:22:00.001+08:00

Today is a happy day. :D

1.2

2009-10-19T00:16:00.002+08:00

Just done with watching 1 Litre of Tears for the second time.
The first time was when I was in secondary... school. (Wanted to give a specific number but I really can't recall so I gave up.)
I think I cried more this time round.
Maybe because death feels nearer now.
That aside, Asou Haruto is damn awesome. (:

Back to school tomorrow.
Not exactly looking forward to it.
It's gonna be hell hectic this semester I think?

Ganbatte, Sin Ying!
Ganbatte, everyone! (:

我胡了我胡了！

2009-09-30T21:49:00.004+08:00

I kinda got hooked to mahjong after PC chalet.
But, you know, nobody's always free to play with me, right?
So I resorted to playing mahjong on the computer, with computer players.

No life, yes, but fun nonetheless. :)

Today I was playing the mahjong game called 明星三缺一, and guess what?!
I had a 天胡!!!!!

See, got evidence okay! :P
I totally owned the other players!
Everyone started off with $100000 and then they all lost to me!

Zai right! Not bad for a newbie like me! :D

人生不如意事，十之八九。

2009-09-28T18:00:00.004+08:00

2009年 9月 28日，晴

今天，我心情糟透了。

他，他，和她，失去了父亲。
她，失去了丈夫。
她和她，失去了一个只见过一面却很喜欢的叔叔。

而他，失去了生命。

人生无常，谁也不知道下一秒会发生什么事。
能爱，就爱。
爱，就说出口。
因为来不及的爱，是最大的遗憾。

衷心地感谢每个曾陪伴过我的人。
谢谢你们陪我欢笑，伴我落泪。

You'll be remembered.
Rest In Peace.

Like A Knife, Right Through My Heart.

2009-09-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

1) My blogger is still screwed up.
2) Went back to Anderson to celebrate Teachers' Day yesterday.
3) Class BBQ tomorrow.
4) My 5th show coming up.
5) K-pop is actually nice.
6) Semester 1's over. I'm having my holidays.

I think I need to get a life.

(Y)

2009-08-16T22:17:00.000+08:00

Dined at Pastamania earlier.
Mum ordered salad but no dressing was given for it.
So I asked one of the waitresses, "Can I have the dressing for the salad?"
She gave me a blank face and replied, "Dressing as in......?"
"............the sauce?"

She must be the Employee of the Month.

All Again, For You

2009-08-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

Today has been a pretty much screwed up day, 'nuff said.

I'm Yours

2009-08-10T02:00:00.000+08:00

Pull a string; I'm yours.

Pull a string, to the left.
Pull a string, to the right.

Pull a string, laugh.
Pull a string, cry.

Just pull a string; I'm all yours.

Hate it when you're so capable of manipulating my emotions, even when... sigh. Alcohol is not helping at all. Oh well, I guess I should just go to bed...

:S

2009-08-06T00:22:00.002+08:00

This whole thing is freaking confusing. Too confusing for me to comprehend, in fact.

Do you realise, that in your pursue for happiness, you actually caused pain to others? I don't know what you were thinking to have done that, really. Knowingly or unknowingly, it doesn't matter anymore, because what's done has been done. But, well, good luck anyway.

I thought I knew certain people pretty well. Turns out that I might be wrong. I don't know. Shall not be too quick to judge. Let's see how things go.

Do you know...

2009-08-03T00:15:00.003+08:00

...that I feel neglected?

Maybe it's my own fault. Maybe I've spent too much time away. Maybe my heart has drifted elsewhere. Maybe we never were that close in the first place.

I don't get it. I really don't. Why is this happening? It's getting really hard to balance. There's no railing, no hand for me to grab on to, nothing. I'm going to fall soon.

I don't want history to repeat itself.

Do you know that it actually hurts?

All's been good

2009-07-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

...or so I think.

For one, my Coke intake has gone down pretty much. At least I don't drink 1.5 litres of Coke a day anymore, thanks to the Stop At One policy. Coke's still the best though. <3

My wound's healing well too. Have been trimming it since it started to detach bit by bit. Now I only need the skin to grow back and hope there won't be a scar.

Now for the not so nice parts of my life..

I failed my statistics test. Not surprising, but saddening still. Tutor called and asked, "What happened to you?" Yeah well, now I've got remedial classes on Mondays from 5-7pm. As if my Mondays aren't long enough already.

My grade for Special Occasion Speech was pretty bad too. Now I think I don't deserve the gummy burger. ):

Stayed back on Thursday to do CSA web project till 9pm, which meant that we were in school for 12 hours straight. Such an epic day it was. Sarah would agree with me on this. :) "I was blown away~ What could I say~~" Yeah, it's not over just yet. There's more work to come. Lalalalalaaaa.

Oh and I was damn blur the other day.
When I texted with my phone using T9, a lot of weird words came out. Like for example, when I wanted to type "tonight", "tinggi" came out instead. I reaaaaally thought that my phone was spoilt or something lor. Later that night, I realised the T9 language was set to Malay. Made me feel so dumb. D:
On that same day, I was on the bus wondering why it was moving backwards when I remembered I was sitting facing the back. Lol.

(Okay I know I'm slow but I just realised that Blogger is looking weird. Where are all the buttons?! D:)

Running outta stuff to say. Shall blog again the next time I blog. See you when I see you. :D

Skating~~

2009-07-11T21:27:00.008+08:00

The first day of Freedom was AWESOME to the max, I tell you. :D

So I headed off to school in the morning for PC. When I reached, there was only 3 other people. I was like, "Where's everybody? O.O" Then X told me, "You all are the 'everybody'." HAHA. How sad right!

Learnt about the different types of mics & we were given scenarios and we had to set up the stage accordingly. I was pretty lost actually. Was still half asleep. >.<

Headed to ECP and rented skates. The person at the rental store asked if I needed guards. I turned to Emilie and said, "O.o Do I need guards? Yes I need guards." And they both laughed at me. Hahaha.

Once I got on my wheels, Alex tried to guide me down the slope, onto the main road. He was skating backwards and holding me. In the end, I lost balance and fell right on my butt. Dragged him down as well, and I almost kicked him in his...... Nevermind.

We skated for like 1km or something I think, before we reached the 'pond'. Rested and waited for Liwei, Marcus and Wai to meet us.

On the way back, they all decided to do a stunt, whereby we form a line and grab on to the person in front, such that we'll move all together. I was behind Wai & in front of Emilie. Marc, who was the first, SKATED FREAKING FAST. So uhm I was like screaming for him to slow down and the next thing I knew, I fell sideways. (<- This sounds kinda sad LOL.) I didn't even realise my elbow was bleeding until someone said, "Your elbow..." and I looked. The best thing is, I WAS WEARING AN ELBOW GUARD. I guess the force was so great that I was sliding on the rough ground for a bit, and my elbow guard got pushed up. Emilie kinda fell on me, but thankfully she moved her leg away from my head just in time, otherwise I might just have been knocked out. Hahaha.

In my honest opinion, skating is scarier than roller coaster rides. Maybe it's just this one experience which makes me think so lah. Hahaha. Even Keith agrees that this is really scary.

& showering is ALWAYS torturing when you have an open wound. I think I haven't cursed this much in a long time. :x

Pictureeeee of my wound, which I'm sure you're dying to see.

The wound area is actually a little swollen. And the red colour stuff is my blood, not lotion.

Picture of my injured butt? Nah, you won't be interested. But before I go, I must say, MY BUTT IS HURTING VERY MUCH. ):

<3

2009-07-08T15:40:00.003+08:00

From the blackboard,

Dear students
All PS tutorials for this week are cancelled. Instead, please do the assignment posted on LMS under your course documents.
Please read through the lecture notes first before attempting the assignment. I will release the answers in the lecture on the following week.
Please note that the lecture this coming Monday is cancelled as well. We will continue with an SDL lecture instead on Language Use.
Please bear with us in the meantime.
We love you all and miss you. Please take care.
Regards,
Lin Da, Julie, Lai Pheng and Komala
from the PS team

So sweet. I miss everyone. ):

2009-07-07T22:08:00.004+08:00

Changed the blog's skin, if you haven't already noticed. Decided to have Twitter on my sidebar instead of Plurk. Will still be Plurking, just that you guys won't see it. I have no idea why my twits are in bullet points. ):

Anyhow, I'm still under quarantine and I must say that it's getting reaaaaaally boring, though I get to sleep all I want. I miss 1A02 to the max! E-learning sucks. Me no likey. ):

Texted my CP to tell him my temperature and to my absolute surprise, he actually replied, asking if I was feeling okay. I then told him I was feeling great and he replied, "Good:-)". LOL somehow I find this funny. Is this funny? Please tell me this is funny.

Okay I just got reminded of the time when Psychedelusions was doing our project at Sarah's place and my CP called me because he "pressed wrongly". My reaction was priceless, so they say. Ahem, inside joke; it's too embarrassing to tell.

Till the next time, stay healthy, peepole. :D

2009-07-06T22:42:00.002+08:00

LOA extended to Thursday. Which means that I'll have no school for this week. It sucks in a sense that I'll have to stay home these few days, but at least I get to sleep a lot.

H1N1 is actually scary when it strikes so near you, even scarier when you become a possible carrier of the virus and have to be quarantined.

Get well soon, Diane! >.<

LOA.

2009-07-06T00:32:00.003+08:00

Care person called me thrice while I was taking a nap today. Woke up, came online, and found out from my mates that the entire class was given Leave of Absence (LOA) till Wednesday because there's a case of H1N1 in HSS and we were all in contact with her on Wednesday, when we were waiting for our CSA lab lesson to start.

I hope everyone's doing good. 1A02, take care of yourselves uh! <3

Random

2009-07-02T21:13:00.003+08:00

Okaaaay it's been so long since I last blogged... Uhm I've been really busy rushing through projects and tutorials and whatnot.

So yesterday half of the class went to Bistro for lunch. I got the tag number 46 and Jeremy got number 39. Our table was talking about the movie Drag Me To Hell (which sounds pretty horrifying) and then the person at the counter called for number 38.

Jeremy: Awww so sad I'm gonna be next.
Me: Uhhh no it doesn't go by the order.
Just as I said that....
Person-at-the-counter: 46!

Pwned. xD

(PC training tomorrow woohooooooooo. HSS AGM tomorrow woohoooooooooooooooooooo!)

See you geeks tomorrow! 8D

Happy Birthday

2009-06-27T00:01:00.002+08:00

I hope you're happy.
Happy birthday, even though you'll never see this.
Be happy.

With love,
.......
I don't even know what to sign off as. Forget it. Why bother.

Damn those tears.

Emo

2009-06-20T01:15:00.001+08:00

This is an emo post.
*slits wrists* T___T

See this, Felix?
Hahahahaha.

2009-06-19T18:01:00.002+08:00

I'm back. PCOC was awesome to the max. :D

Team Sapphire doing the Sapphire clap. Hahahaha I look so retarded.

Group photo during photo hunt outside TCC.

We won the uhm... I don't know what prize. Overall winner or something like that?

One last group photo before we went off.

IMBA!
LEGENDARY!
SAPPHIRE!!!!!!!!
:D

Unbeautiful- Lesley Roy

2009-06-14T23:12:00.002+08:00

Unbeautiful- Lesley Roy

Don't hang up,
Can we talk?
So confused
It's like im lost.
What went wrong?
what made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me
Im unchangeable

When did we
Fall apart?
Or did you lie
From the start?
When you said
Its only you
I was blind
Such a fool
Thinking we
Were unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

I've been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that's true
I'm stuck in time
I'm stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cuz im only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

Because we're much better
All together
Can't let go.

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?

Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful
Made me unbeautiful...

This song is freakin' awesome. I got hooked to it since the first rehearsal hahaha. It's like the story of my life, six months ago. 14 doesn't hurt as much as before.

Alright let's not get all emotional now. I'm looking forward to PC camp and I should totally get down to doing my work but I'm so lazy haiiii.

Okay bye guys.

2009-06-11T20:48:00.002+08:00

Here's a conversation back in April, when I was in HK.

Dad (to Mum): When you reach -I forgot where-, use Candy (my Aunt)'s phone to call me.
Aunt (to Mum): No I won't lend you~
Dad (to Mum): ....then you go find a public phone and call me. (He was serious about this.)
Aunt: I was kidding... Okay I shall be more direct.
Aunt (to Mum): I am VERY willing to lend you my phone. (:
Dad: That's better. Why beat around the bush?

HOLY MACARONI RONALDO'S GOING TO REAL MADRID NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hai sadded.

2009-06-11T14:44:00.002+08:00

像个白痴一样。

When life screws you upside down, just grab a can of coke, drink it, and tell yourself, "This is life- shit happens."

I've changed pretty much, I think. But sometimes, I can't help retreating back to my old self. You're everywhere and it's just impossible to avoid thinking about you, or pretend I don't see anything.

It doesn't matter anyway. It never mattered.
I never mattered.

2009-06-11T11:41:00.002+08:00

Hellooooooooo~~~~~~ :D

Holidays have been pretty good till now. Basically I've been slacking, stoning, playing stupid games and whatnot. Only constructive things I've done are the psych videos and PC. Oh well, you know me, the ultimate procrastinator.

I threw up in the afternoon yesterday with no apparent reason. As in, not really throw up la. The vomit reached my mouth cavity. Not wanting to dirty my room, I swallowed everything. Gross.

PC is damn fun and awesome. Diane and I are doing FS for the event. Sad man, cannot talk to her 'cause she's like at the other end!!!! ): Had a rehearsal last night and made new friends. Everyone's so lame and funny, I likeeeeee. :D And apparently, the ratio of guys and girls in PC is the reverse of that in my course. Hohoho.

PC FTW~~~~!!!! :D
'nuff said.

2009-06-01T22:07:00.001+08:00

These people, they're one of the reasons why I look forward to school everyday. (:

2009-05-27T22:40:00.002+08:00

Mid-sem tests are next week... & I thought school has barely started.
Need to start studying sigh I'm such a procrastinator.
Poly is SO not slack. :/

Please don't let it be me...... :S
(Need to stop thinking about _______ too.)

2009-05-25T18:57:00.002+08:00

It only took one damn thing to make me crumble and collapse.
Why is this happening?

Fuck.